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For Mills Baker ()
The New Orleans I know is down in the delta Where the Mississippi snakes its way in mud, And telephone poles are slowly tipping over. You see them from your train traveling south From Chicago where you had a lucky layover For a day at the Art Institute, looking at American Gothic before climbing back Aboard the train Goodman wrote a song About and Arlo recorded for a beer, The same train Binx and Kate took north When flesh poor flesh was called upon to be The end all and be all but quailed and failed. I read the book and rode the train but failed To reconcile what I knew about the delta With the swamps I saw spread out like beer Spilled across a tavern table to be A sodden gateway to points further south, The rails raised above the marshlands’ back Like a spine with tailbone through the mud. And on my walkman I listened to that song As well as the young Bob Dylan’s turnover Of “shun that house in New Orleans” north Of the Gulf of Mexico but south of desire at My ten-dollar-a-night Orleans Hotel layover, An upgrade from my first night’s layover — At the Le Dale, with rooms that failed To provide a weary traveler much rest at Night, cigarette smoke inhaling under south Facing doors and bed-induced aching back. What was it Percy said about the delta Factor? Helen Keller naming mud From water, lovely water, pouring over Her hand as her teacher from the north Spelled it in her other hand. Like beer, The water took on what could only be Felt as resplendent like a sudden song. That was how, as if walking into a song, I felt rising in New Orleans from a layover Of twenty years before I bought a hardback Edition of The Moviegoer while browsing at Percy’s favorite bookshop a little south Of East Carrollton where I could’ve failed Out of Tulane, enrolling from the north, A reversal of Will Barrett in the mental mud Of Central Park seeing a falcon over The city with a telescope before he could be Seen. But riding the streetcar was my delta, Reading about Kate as I thought about beer, Cape jasmine in Kate’s lap, Dixie beer And jambalaya on my mind, a jazz song With trombone wafting up from Bourbon at Saint Peter, near where the river turns north In its twisting and turning to its own delta Where dreams and gators rise from the mud. Now three decades later I sit in the back Of the same green streetcar heading south- Southwest, then west-northwest over To where I’ll discover the now-failed Ruins of Maple Street Books on a layover In Audubon Park where a person can be A person among birds and not have to be Anyone in particular. To be such a be-er In the heavy Louisiana air at Two o’clock in the afternoon, the north Forgotten and the strangeness of the south Rife with signposts leaning over in the mud Taking center stage and hearkening back To that Randy Newman song, another delta Between perception and reality when failed Dreams are resurrected in a piano song And a pleasant “Dixie Flyer” layover. I could listen to that album over and over And I did, when it came out, over A year before I dreamt I could be “Yes-sir-ree, in the land of reverie” back When I also listened to Harry’s song About Basin Street. It also never failed To combine, like a semiotic delta, Multiple triangles of meaning writ in mud, As I interrupted my education in the north And took a leave of absence for a layover In a train car traveling seemingly at The speed of the sipping of a beer In a dining car traveling over The great plains of the north, then south To New Orleans, then east, and then south Again to Florida to see Ron, then back over The entire span of the country with a beer For each day I was stuck on board and at The mercy of the weather for a layover Somewhere in the malaise of the north, Feeling inwardly trapped, reading “The Delta Factor” and Tolkien, reaching the back Cover of the last book and its vision of failed Humanity, not quite paradise regained, to be Back in the shire with not quite a song In my heart but something more like mud. So here I stand in a spot where the mud Of Audubon Park is the soil of the south. A baker’s dozen times — not just a layover Along the Gulf coast but a true delta Between the alpha and omega of my over And under achieving life, my love song To myself playing hide and seek in my back Pages — I’ve visited here from the north. Beignets and po’boys with coffee and beer, Sazeracs and Hurricanes on Bourbon to be Followed by an hour where jazz has failed To be commercialized out of existence at Preservation Hall or along Decatur at Cafe Du Monde — my first stop, the mud Of the Mississippi mingling with beer And crawfish and oysters and catfish over The Crescent Connection sunrise song And the chugging of a tugboat in the delta Dawn on its way to Baton Rouge and back Out into the Gulf of Not America for a layover In the narcissistic inevitable second failed Presidency of a con artist from south Queens coming down for the Chiefs, to be Their bad luck, and ours, from the north. I’m back at home now in the frozen north With my beloved, a Montrealer, at The kitchen counter listening to a song By Ella, her favorite, and Satch from south Of Rampart Street, pouring whiskey over Ice cubes to stir into sazeracs for our layover In the February blizzard of home, no beer Left in the fridge, and no regrets about failed Diets and the big easy weight gain like mud Heavy in the rain of spring. The Delta Flight that corkscrewed to a landing to be Lying there like a beetle stuck on its back Won’t be the airplane that takes us back, But there will be another in its failed Wake that will someday succeed at Transporting us again on angelic wings over The fertile fields and cities flowing with beer Like Jean Baptiste LeMoyne deBienville to be Emissaries of love without a layover. There’s so much I haven’t said in this song To New Orleans and Walker Percy’s South. Perhaps like him I’ll write a novel in the mud Of my deeper longings and set it in the north Or a thousand more poems, each a delta. For now the delta of my own mind’s mud Lies still but flies over thoughts of the south. I recall departing, and my next layover at A museum in D.C., back when a song Could pay for a beer and train ride north And like New Orleans I could be happily failed.
I remember that Florida visit,
when the hood of my '65
popped open in surprise,
while going 65
to somewhere now forgotten.
And me following you to New Orleans
and introducing me to just a few of her memoriable mysteries.
What a trip! It is as if I time traveled. I prefer the scenic routes. Will have to read and re-read to truly grasp it. All in all, I truly enjoyed it. Thank you.